Diary of a deranged gal

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 01:35:58 GMT

It was last period today that it actually struck me that High School is over. So many of the faces I have grown so accustomed to seeing on a daily basis I may never see again. So many of the little things I have taken for granted are going to be gone, as we all go our separate ways. And hearing that bell for the last time didn't give me the sense of freedom and happiness that usually comes with the last day of school. Instead, I just felt sad and a little scared.

It scares me that we are all growing up. That we are all moving on. It scares me that I am actually going to be at university in two month's time. The comfort zone is slipping away too quickly.

I guess what I am saying is the last four years have just been incredible. (Oh gosh, here I am, getting a little teary-eyed). Thanks to everyone who has made it so great. And thanks to everyone who has put up with my little sob-fests over the last couple of days.

Write me at camp this summer, guys! please!

Amy Parker
c/o Camp Mi-A-Kon-Da
R.R.#2
Dunchurch ON
P0A 1G0

Ottawa Photos!

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 18:14:38 GMT

Okay...once again, I have posted photos onto my facebook...simply cuz their photo-uploading is superior :D

Part One

Part Two

Feel free to leave comments here though.

Guhh?

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 04:10:57 GMT

Moms are nutso. Mine has just decided that I am going to become an Anorexic!

Okay. So each and every single teenage girl (and I am sure most every guy too) out there is insecure about some aspect of her (or his) body (Anisha, you and I were just having a conversation about this!).....well, so I am assuming.

NOW, I made the mistake of telling mother-dearest (offhandedly) that my legs are that such aspect. Now, things that I have done for years are suddenly "unsafe" and suggesting that I dont eat!

OKAY, so today I didn't have much breakfast (but there's plenty of days where I have none at all.....simply for convenience. I mean, who doesn't miss a meal every so often?) and suddenly it was; "Amy, you need to eat more. You aren't Fat!" as a result, I was nearly late for a dentist appointment.

Afterschool, I am sitting eating a yummy english muffin when she arrives home. And because I was eating then, that CLEARLY meant 'I didn't eat my lunch', Does that even make sense?! Correct me if I am wrong, but Anorexia is NOT EATING! Yet there I was, being the little, snacking anorexic.

And now she came down to say good night and all she says is "Goodnight dear. My, your shoulders and chest are so boney. I'm just worried about you sweetie. I know you didn't eat your lunch"

HUH?! Mom, I eat. I ate lunch. and flat chests like mine often will look boney in a low-cut top.

GUUUH!!!! Dear lordy, I hope she drops this soon.

Zombie Prom Photos finally uploaded!

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 02:17:07 GMT

http://hs.facebook.com/album.php?aid=43&l=ac8f6&id=1651320026

and now back to the hours of work awaiting me!

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 16:11:14 GMT

I have been awake and at home for the past 4 hours and I have accomplished NOTHING! Home sick today (still healing from those wisdom teeth) anyway, today was supposed to be the day that I worked my buns off and finshed all the work i am lagging behind in. But that doesn't seem to be happening...insetead, I have been sitting in front of my t.v. watching Robin Williams do stand-up, and other non-productive things. Geez. Must learn to focus.

FOCUS!

This Week's to do list:

Mon, 29 May 2006 05:38:13 GMT

-Comparison Essay for Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
-Portrait of the Artist seminar
-Human Growth and Development board game
-edit essays for english (literary essays)
-catch up on overdue homework for human growth
-find SOMETHING I can do for the grade 12 music recital and learn it somewhat....and it can't be clarinet because I am...
-Getting my wisdom teeth pulled.

Might I add how much the final point freaks me out beyond all belief! Really, I have had bad experiences with teeth extractions...it has become a real phobia for me. I still remember when I was ten years old telling myself how "Gee, thank god its such a long ways away before I'll need any more teeth pulled! And hey, when I get my wisdom teeth out I'll practically be an adult! I won't be scared of it then!"...heh, clearly I had misconcieved notions of adulthood....or when one actually becomes an adult. Because I am still scared shitless and feeling less like an adult than ever before!

Wed, 24 May 2006 04:21:43 GMT

Home from Ottawa. Head swimming with memories of fun times, flirtatious grade nines, Hottubbing, drama, drama, drama, mafia, Rap offs photos galore, late-night chat sessions, Mr. D's theories, Angels, puddle jumping oh so sexy DRUMMERS, "creepy boy" talks, shopping, caving, not-so-much sleeping, laughing, tim hortons, giant spiders, bra-vogue, keep right, belly-laughs, rain, Duncan McNabb (this still wierds me out!) and so so so so much more!

And now dear friends, I have muchos work to do...none of which I want to do. Damn you english class.

p.s. photos later....too little time

My walk home from the bus stop

Thu, 11 May 2006 21:12:57 GMT

As most of you know, my bus stop is about a 15-20 minute walk from my house. And today it was raining. Now...normally, I would mind this, but today I actually had an AMAZING time walking home! I was decked out today in all the appropriate rain attire, from my hot pink raincoat to my kiddie umbrella (with flowers and all) and my gardening shoes (my hole-y soles!). I tell ya, the shoes made it. I went swishing and splashing through pond-like puddles like I was 8 years old again! It was so fun! At one point I was wading through a particularly large pool (okay, not so much wading more splashing) and I turned around to find out there was this guy walking behind me the whole time I was doing my splashy, nostalgiac walk home. I felt a little embarrased but went on about my walk...psh, who cares if a neighbour thinks I'm insane.

Daily Dancer Strikes Again

Wed, 10 May 2006 03:43:52 GMT

In the midst of all the crazy stress I am under this week (between a music history test, TWO english tests, musical performances and a music harmony exam that determines whether or not I keep my acceptance at U of T)...this guy makes me smile:

http://dailydancer.com/videos/2006/05/u_cant_touch_this.mp4

somebody tell me...what is he trying to touch? For the life of me, I can't figure it out...but it makes me giggle.

p.s. I am sooooo beyond excited re: ZOMBIE PROM!!

U of T music!

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 23:57:18 GMT

OmfreakinG. I got into the U of T music ed. program. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees!

Life is better than good right now. All I need to do is pass my harmony exam and I am set.

Music=no mistake by a looong shot!!!!!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

yummmmmm

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 23:11:38 GMT

This easter weekend has left me chock-full of chocolate, lamb, good times and probably 8 lbs extra around the mid-section.
But damn, it was worth it!
Happy Easter holiday, everyone (albeit I'm a little late in saying so).

The worst thing in the world is losing touch with friends...

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 05:00:24 GMT

I was just thinking today about an old dear friend who haven't talked to in about 10 months. Damn. That's too long. I have been telling myself for months to pick up the phone and give her a ring, yet the more time that passes, the more ashamed I get that I didn't keep in touch.

It's sad to think how hard it is to build up a strong, trusting, deep friendship, yet how easy it is to lose it all.

And next year, as we all go our separate ways, it will be even harder to stay in touch and maintain the same friendships we all have now. People will move. People will change. And friendships will be put under strain. I'm sure hoping I dont get so dumb as to lose any more friendships by idly letting them slip through the cracks.

The waiting game sucks.

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 04:29:40 GMT

University stuff is making me feel sick to my stomach.
Perhaps music was a mistake...a big fat waste of time and money.

I am sure hoping not.

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 04:43:05 GMT

So Mr. Grunburg is so far not letting me drop Philosophy...dammit. Here I was getting all nervous about my mom not letting me drop, and here's my teacher giving me a hastle...Honestly, I thought teachers HAD to let you drop if you request it...really, all it means is less marking for him. Psh. well hoping that this all works out....and fast. I am reallly getting tired of this course.

Still feeling stupid about AC DC boy. haha. Well, you know what they say about fish in the sea... :D

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 01:02:23 GMT

I was looking through what few old lj entries I have...and you know? March break last year was waaaaaaay better (Finished cleaning my room, got my hair cut, ACTUALLY socialized) Ahhh well!

Veeerry Tired.....Silly me stayed up til 1:30 last night to work on philosophy, but I didnt get even half a page done in three hours! gaaah...now theres some nice procrastination for ya!

But tomorrow shall be better...Field trip!!!!!!! yesssssssss! But I really dont want to go to English last period.....In fact, I dont think I shall go...presentations. Who needs 'em?

And now I reaaally should be doing philosophy (and English, and Human Growth), but I have lost all that drive to do work and be productive. And that is a nasty little trap to fall into. I blame television....simply cuz its an easy scapegoat. Oh,and Msn (and no scapegoating there). And the Government. Yes. The Government.

Where has my motiviation gone?

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 05:47:47 GMT

Dear Amy:

Three Days of the break remain. Here is what you still need to do:

-PRACTICE CLARINET!!!!!(x3 days)

-Clean Room (I have been avoiding this...its scares me)

-Make final copy of English essay

-Philosophy homework (Alegory of the cave--handout and assignment, Pre-Socratic Philosopher Ogranizer)

-Call Maarika

-Go SHOPPING! (neeeeeed clothes!)

-Harmony homework

-Figure something out for English presentation with Nishi, Dora, Ingrid

-Pick up glasses from Lenscrafters

-Build a time machine to go back to the beginning of the break (so that I could use that time more wisely than I did)

Update, March 19th:
Practicing: Done! Every day! I feel better about this.
Glasses picked up
Philosophy work started

Annnnnnd thats all I can handle for one march break, apparently

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 00:07:12 GMT

Yaaaaay! Today was fun! Who knew that working on a project could be such the shizit! haha I like that word. A lil' gossip, a lil' lunch (which, btw Anisha, was fabby-doo!), a lil' bit o' giggles, oh yeah...and a lil' work!

You guys SO rock my socks....I do believe this project/essay is forshadowing a great semester of teamwork etc.

Oh and when I got in the car my mom had acquired the CD that has allll our school's versions of O Canada on it (from the synthesyser karaoke to the Nylons...indeed, good times), the songbook from Spamelot, A clarinet book of beatles songs (accompaniment CD included) and yes, A baton ( not the twirly, cheerleader kind but the "1 2 3 4" kind)

Anyway, I'm off to arise a ruckus with my clarinet and my dear friends Lennon and McCartney!

Toodles!

March What-Now?

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 04:46:07 GMT

Gaaahh....Stress mounting....panic setting in...and I thought march break was supposed to be just that...a BREAK!!!!

Practicing is starting to kiiiiiill me....I have been playing pretty much every spare second I have had, and believe me, clarinets are NOT designed to be held for hours on end! I have developed a wierd bump on my right-hand thumb and Carpal Tunnel Syndrome is beginning to set in. Why oh why didn't I choose an instrument with a neck-strap?!

Last night both our cars were broken into....AGAIN!!! Jeez Louise, here I was thinking I was living in Perfectville, Suburbia and we have been ransacked twice in three weeks. Thankfully nothing big was stolen. We thought that the registration for my mom's car was taken, but turns out they just stuck it in our neighbours car and we got it back before noon time. Regardless, it's a little creepy, the whole thing. I mean, total invasion of privacy. We reported it to the police this time and apparently its been a big problem in our neighbourhood recently...nobody (like NOBODY) locks their car doors here, so I guess it makes us an easy target.

Oh, and did you know that apparently people are really big into stealing AIRBAGS?! seems so weird to me, I mean first of all, what use is an airbag without a car? And secondly, I am betting its a big hassle to pull one of those things out! Somebody explain this to me....the police man on the phone didnt.

Anyhooooo, I had better stop writing and continue editing essays (see? even on a holiday, there's no break from work!)

Amy Needs...

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 06:37:34 GMT

hey guys! Bored? In need of a quick way to procrastinate? Try this!

I just went onto Google and typed in "Amy needs" and I got this:

Amy needs to either wake up or start getting some extra will-power [actually, I think right now my problem is that Amy needs to go to sleep!]

Amy needs some training

AMY NEEDS SHOOTIN! [ YEE-HAW!]

Amy needs to calm down [dear god yes! Thats what march break is for, no?]

Amy needs a new pair of shoes [this too is true...have you SEEN my shoes?! yeugch]

Amy needs to mend her ways and be more of a team player

Amy needs help for life [yes. I must tell you all. I am dying. I need your kidney. I waited to tell you over live journal.]

Amy needs to be kept safe and nurtured by a foster carer [my family isn't THAT bad...]

Amy needs to be found

Amy needs healing in her body and more faith in the lord [oh, lawdy lawdy, somebody find Benny Hinn!]

Amy needs sex [ooooh, baby!]

Amy needs a valentine [haha stoopid google! Valentines day has come and gone...no, I won't even start thinking about this for a good while]

Amy needs to reach out to others.

AND THE WINNER:
Amy needs her pookie bear
awwwWWW!

If anybody can help me with said needs, drop me a line (or at least a comment!) haha.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 03:42:15 GMT

My mom is concerned that I'm on the edge of a mental break down. Too much stuff on the go. I personally disagree. Psh, moms.

Summer cant come soon enough!

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 23:18:03 GMT

Subject: summer 2006

Hi Amy,
I hope that you are having a good winter but looking forward to summer. I am in the process of doing staffing for the summer and would like to offer you a counsellor position and the Head of Drama. The dates this summer are June 25 - August 26. I look forward to hearing from you.

Best Regards,
Pam

=-D

This is eeexcellent!!!!!! I was sooo concerned that I wouldnt get to go back, but I can, and this is good. And head of Drama.....mmmm....

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 03:07:29 GMT

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 20:36:42 GMT

holidays are almost over.....sigh...

CAMPCAMPCAMPCAMPCAMPCAMPCAMP!

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 15:08:35 GMT

Yayayayaya! it's summer! I can't believe it is here already! I have ssoooo much to do tho, I leave for camp on Friday and I have to clean and pack up my room ( cuz we are getting the floors refinished and onthing can be on them) and I need to shop and pack for camp! yikes! I will never in a million years be ready to go!!! the plan will be: clean and pack room today, do laundry, see what I need, etc. and then tomorrow: pack and shop!!!! It'll be a mad, fun, rush!!! I can hardly wait to go!

to everyone who I haven't pestered yet, WRITE!

Amy Parker
Camp Mi-A-Kon-Da
RR #2
Dunchurch ON
P0A 1G0

love to all those who I don't talk to before I leave!

Amus

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 03:10:27 GMT

Like the New Look??? I thought the other was kinda...ya kno...nerd-esque.

Idol was good...I LOVE BO BICE!!!...that song really was amazing

Amz

ps. YAY for SLEEPOVER!